Tuesday the hospital
rang that the blood numbers were too low or bad - so we were
no to take the chemotherapy treatment. That was kind of
okay, as the weekend had been bad with pain and
discomfort. But still at setback as we really want to be
well again. During the week things seems to be better
and hopefully we will be back on chemotherapy next
tuesday - but probably on a lower dose.
Most of the week
came and went by. I am really happy about the chicken
house is gone. I spend some time cleaning up the ground
and removing small pieces of garbage. On tuesday
afternoon I did a "short" 2 hour walk down to
The small-land waterway. A
blackbird has made a nest just out side our utility
room. Tina has named her Solvej. In danish a blackbird
is called Solsort - the direct translate is Sunblack.
Anyway the name make sense in danish. She have 4 eggs
and it seems like the male bird has left her.
This sunday I
changed some the worst of the worst of the glass lists.
I even had to use some filler where the original tree
was gone. Maybe next time I will go all in and change
the rest. The conservatory is rotten - but maybe this
will buy us some time until a major change is necessary.
1 / 15
Tuesday was a very cold morning
2 / 15
Three hares in the field
3 / 15
From my walk
4 / 15
Lolland is mostly farmland
5 / 15
Down at the sea - walking through seaweed
6 / 15
One weird three
7 / 15
One walk without a selfie
8 / 15
One my way back home
9 / 15
The skies and sun plays drama queen
10 / 7
Four egg - four new futures
11 / 7
Blackbird looking evil on me
12 / 7
After cleaning the ground at the old chicken
Next week could be
interesting. There is talk about reopening of the gym.
However the conditions are still unclear. I am planning
on going to work three times again and work from home
the remaining two days.
Three days at work
For the first time
in very long time I was three days at work. Both monday,
tuesday and then thursday. Thursday was a bonus because
I had a session with a coworker about how to align our
accounting system and our system for maintenance. Else
work is kind of okay now and days. I just have to get
used to, that we are more people now and the tasks are
more spread out now. On tuesday I took a detour
King's New Square and the old
The cancer thing
goes okay - It seems the side effects of the
chemotherapy treatment may begin to be a little worse
than in the beginning. We don't really know for sure
yet. But I think we are on 2 where 1 is not affected and
5 is chained to a bed and near dead. On friday we drove
down to our summerhouse to relax.
Or at least try to
relax. On saturday I began to mowing the lawn. That took
almost 4 hours! It was for the first time and the
container kept being full all the time. Apparently moss
fills more than grass and we have a lot of moss! Then I
duck up one of the flower beds literally. It also had
this water thing duck down. That turned out to be some
sort of a steel trolley. Now we will wait for the rain
at the earth to settle down. Then it is time to so new
Sunday afternoon I
knocked down the old chicken house. Oh man - we have
just so much garbage lying around now! We really need to
buy this trailer soon.
The renovation of
the bedroom on the 1. floor is kind of a stand still.
But now we finally called the plumber about the removal
of the radiator. When that one is gone - we can move on
and hopefully make it look good.
Almost a normal week?
On monday our bed
finally came and they even carried it all the way up on
the 1. floor. Tina and I ware worried about, if it even
could get up there - but no problems. However it turned
out, that it had been damaged in transport - Crap! So we
contacted the bed company and complained. Thankfully
they said, that we could begin using the bed. The
damaged part is against the wall, so it really don't
matter. But still - at that price it have to be perfect.
I guess the bed stories will continue.
On tuesday evening I
drove home from Lolland. Both chemotherapy treatment and
antibody drop at
Rigshospitalet. I all went fine - only the usual
stomach problems. On thursday I went to work - for real.
That was a vary nice day. We are still only allowed the
meet in twice a week. But so nice finally to meet and
interact with real human beings. Staying down at Lolland
for one hole week alone made me just a little bit
chinese Corona things have begun to loosen a little bit
up. Stores and restaurants have begun opening up again -
lets hope, that the gym also will open as soon as
On sunday I went for
a good long walk. I took the usual way around the Dike,
by the airport and back home around 21,5
That was supposed to be good for my mental health.
Afterwards my legs hurts and my mind is still a little
offset. It would be nice to get some purpose back in my
life - like begin to work normal, be able to go to the
gym again and get rid of the cancer thing.
I will most likely
drive to Lolland on wednesday. Tina will follow on
friday where we will stay the rest of april. The garden
is such a big challenge and I want the get as much done
before everything are in blossom. We also have to take a
look at our bedroom and try to finish the renovation. We
have to call a plumber to remove the radiator before we
can proceed with the project.
But most of all - I
will try to remember to take more pictures.
2021-04-11 - Finally I
pulled myself together
It has been very
long since the latest update - I know. Much have
happened - we got married at
City Hall. Afterward we invited my parents and Tinas
sister and husband on lunch. Because of the chinese
Corona everything is still very restricted. Afterward we
drove to our new summer house on
It has not been a
pleasant time. I have been thinking a lot about the
cancer and what could happen if one of us are no more
just after we have bought this house. Dark thoughts with
no future are making our life hard. Just eating food has
been a struggle.
was okay. Both my parents, some of Tinas colleagues and
my old climbing buddy came by at our summer house. Three
days of good distraction from the darkness luring in the
background. After Easter Tina took the train back home
to Copenhagen. I stayed back because we are expecting to
get our new bed to be delivered. That has also been a
fight. Because our house is in the middle of literally
nothing - they have been delaying the transport until
they could fill a truck. It was first after we spoke to
the bed company they finally gave us a date after the
bed have been waiting for 2 weeks at the transport
company. Hopefully we will get it tomorrow and I can
drive back home to Tina.
On wednesday I
finally pulled my shot together and went for a 12 km
long walk down to the sea. On the way out I meet no one!
On my way home I only meet one car on the road. I have
spent a lot of time in the garden cleaning out Ivy and
cutting down the worst of the trees hanging in out the
garage. That have produced tons of garden waste which I
have to find a solution for. We are thinking of buying a
trailer - but I would like to wait just a little. Medio
May we have an important scanning which hopefully will
show which way the cancer are going.
I cannot promise
more frequent updates. Down here at Lolland I only have
my 8 year old computer but most of all not that much
time to spare.
2021-03-21 - Time is
It is kind of
strange - All we are waiting for is the first treatment
on tuesday. Work just fly by. But still we do a lot
stuff. Both thursday and friday Tina went to work. On
saturday evening I meet up some some climbing friends.
Thursday evening we went for at walk down to the inner
harbor. Just after lunch sunday we did another walk
along the harbor.
Next week will be
tricky. On monday the car have to go to service, AC
service, antirust treatment + we will get a tow hook
installed. That will must likely take two or three days.
On friday we will get married at City Hall. Because of
our strange situation and the chinese Corona it will be
very limited. Only Tina's one sister and husband and my
parents will attend. Afterward we have ordered some
lunch and then we will drive on easter vacation at out
summer house at Lolland.
But mostly we try
not to think about tuesday.
2021-03-16 - Worst day
We finally got some
clarity about how bad it is. This cancer thing will be
something we will have to live with for the rest of our
lives. It is not possible to remove through an
operation. We cried, then we cried some more, then we
got some family by and we all cried some more. It is
very hard to accept the fact, than very thing that has a
beginning has an end. But nothing is certain and the
odds is with us.
One thing that will
change our lives just as much is our summerhouse at
We will begin to spend much more time down there. This
weekend we continued our "battle of ivy" and began the
removal of yet another section.
We also kept on
working on the bedroom, but nothing worth of taking
pictures off. That project will most likely take some
more months. There is a radiator just hanging in the
pipes we want to remove and clean up the wall behind.
But we have decided to wait until it gets a little
warmer before we want to get anyone to work on the
heating system in the house.
This house will most
likely be our place, where we can relax from this creepy
illness and find energy to get though the hard times to
2021-03-10 - Still in
We are waiting for
the doctor's appointment on monday next week to hear
about the treatment plan. We called the hospital because
they had sent two almost identical appointment. While
clearing that out - we kind of were told, that we have
yet another appointment on next tuesday, that we don't
know about yet. Anyway - we think that might be the
first chemotherapy treatment - but we will know soon
PET-CT-scanning on thursday we will drive to our
summerhouse. We will both work from there on friday and
then enjoy a hopeful good weekend and some garden work.
I went to the
offices building both monday and tuesday. If we have
"the need", we are allowed to meet twice a week - but no
more than six people in total each day. On tuesday I got
flowers for both Tina and me - so I began to cry again!
Work has almost cooled down regarding me. Many of my
task have been assigned to others, almost to the point,
where I am worried that I might become bored. But fine
with me for now and until we know, how much energy this
situation will demand the coming weeks and months. I am
so lucky, that I have a such awesome work and coworkers!
After monday I guess
the next focus will be our wedding at City hall and the
end of march.
But at least it
felt normal to once again to take a selfie and a picture
over the inner harbor.
2021-03-07 - Cancer -
On thursday we were
Rigshospitalet again to get the answer from the
tests. It was almost worse case. An very fast growing
breast cancer. It has already spread to some lymph
nodes. Next week we will go to a MRI scanning, they will
place coils in breast and lymph and finally a
PET-CT-scanning. On monday in a week the treatment plan
will be ready and the chemotherapy will begin. The
doctor said, that we should prepare for a 8 month long
I don't think, we
have realized what is going to happen and how it will
affect our life's.
Right here and now -
coming though next week is the most important thing. I
guess we will take things as they come. Not to worries
about things that might come - but live in the present
and try to stay positive. We are very happy about, that
we now have a summerhouse we can use, when we need to
relax and just enjoy life and each other.
From now on updates
will come ad hoc when I have time and energy.
2021-03-01 - Up but
Last week was weird.
We both had one week vacation down at our new
However on wednesday we were by
Rigshospitalet to get checked out about a possible
tumor. We don't know the answer yet but it was very
depressing. On thursday evening I kneeled down and asked
Tina if she would marry me - and she said yes! This is a
very turbulent period and will continue for sometime. We
haven't really not thought this marry thing through yet.
We have filled out all the paper work and are just
waiting for a approval and a confirmation of the date.
We found comfort in
the garden and all the work that have to be done. This
week we are both back home and I even went to work on my
bike. Man - that was hard bike ride! I was totally
finish went I arrived at work - totally weak and felling
like a fat cat. I had a long and good talk with my boss
about work, life and everything. Even though much are
going against Tina and I - it seems both our workplaces
are backing us up on what might to come.
Because of the
chinese Corona the gym will be closed yet another month
until the 5. of april.
2021-02-19 - What if
this is the best as it gets?
Yet anther short
update. I have been down at the house almost all week.
The plumber/heat pump guy came by and installed two
units. One on the ground floor and one on 1. floor. Now
I can follow the temperature from my phone at home.
Almost the entire ground floor have been washed down.
That makes everything look much nicer and welcoming.
Every night just before bed time, I do a
long legs hunt. Everyone I found got a blow job with
the the vacuum cleaner.
Next week both Tina
and I have vacation. I am going to bring my chainsaw and
begin to cut down the garden - literally. We will also
try to finish the renovation of the bedroom. I will also
bring my old computer and hopefully begin doing some
more and longer updates.
Work is still silly
stupid. Simply to much to handle right now. The plan is
to have a talk with my boss monday after my vacation on
location - that means at work! Not teams or via phone -
on location. That will be the first time for like three
2021-02-11 - Mostly it
all went to shit
This is only a very
short update. The takeover of the summerhouse went fine
and we enjoyed our first two days by cleaning as much as
we could. Then problems began to appear small and much
larger problems. One of the smaller problems was a
blocked sewer. The larger problem was the weather. The
house has a pellet furnace for heating and warm water.
We did not count on a sudden change of weather and day
frost. That meant we could not leave the house. If the
pellet furnace unexpected would shot down the house
would freeze including water pipes. At the same time
work just became too overwhelming. Instead of calling in
sick, I called my boss and we agreed that it could be
time to do something about it. I simply have too much to
do, and no gym as a stress valve. The result was I eat
almost nothing for 5 days - like nothing!
Big bummer - But now
things seams to be sorted out. Hopeful next week we will
get two heat pumps installed which is much more reliable
and does not require our present in the house. I guess
we should have figured that out sooner - but still
2021-01-24 - New
summerhouse only one week away
As expected it
became a totally workweek. My work log says it became 55
hours. My contract dictate an average
37 hour workweek. This means I either have to "not
work" at some point or get it as money. Actually I did
nothing else than sleep, work or nothing monday to
friday. I only took three pictures! On thursday the
morning skies was unusual beautiful. During the week
Tina got tired of sitting down and invented her own
primitive elevation table.
waypoint at work was wednesday - last chance to change
anything regarding accounting year 2020. Now we have to
make all the reports and explain the result. On friday
at the department meeting we all had to make a short
presentation - I decided to end my presentation by
reading the last verse of the poem "Stopping
by Woods on a Snowy Evening" by Robert Frost:
That was kind of
funny and I think my coworkers liked it. The next weeks
I will keep a low profile. The line between clever and
eccentric is very thin. I hope they understood the
meaning - we still have tons of work to do - but we love
On monday the first
of february we will take over our house on
During the week we got our first house tax collection
for the house. It was very manageable - just around 270
euro for 11 months. We have begun buying all kind of
stuff for the house. But mostly small things like
kitchen things, cleaning stuff and god knows what else.
All stores are still closed in hole Denmark except
groceries because of the chinese Corona. We have decided
just take things as they come and relax. We have like 25
years to enjoy the house before we got like too old
fuckers to take care of a house like that.
Sunday I just had to
go for a walk and clear my mind. To try something new -
I walk from home to
Klampenborg. I woke up early and began the trip just
after 7 am.
Next week will still
be a lot of work and long hours at my "home offices".
Tina and I will most likely be preparing the house
takeover on next monday. We are very much looking
forward to this. Already this monday I will be calling
an Internet provider. This is going to be very much
2021-01-17 - A little
change of layout and some new features
Instead of working, I decided to
do a little home project and change the format on
this page a little. For some time I have had this wish
about combining a map, the GPS track and pictures. But
without having extern random scripts out of my control.
Small project like this is always learning by failing
for me. Many years ago I made this page with a
background picture and a menu on top of this picture. I found
the page in my
archive and combined it with
modal HTML windows. As always
w3schools was a
great help. I am very happy about the result. However
after adding all this extra java my old
Frontpage 2003 have begun to struggle a little bit.
I guess it is going to be limit to only one of those
I guess I won't do a
huge map like below every week! But it is nice to know
how to do it and safe it for later. I would be cool to
use it this summer, if it is possible to drive to
2021-01-16 - Not mush new -
working like a busy work ant
Next week accounting
year 2020 will close for good. But until then there is lots
of work for me and my coworkers. This week I worked more
then 50 hours and I will most likely also open my
workstation tomorrow sunday. Tuesday was insane and I had a
8 am to 9:30 pm workday.
Only exception was
wednesday where I just closed down at 2:30 pm. I had promised
to help one of our nieces. Some years ago Tina gave our
niece her old computer. Now she has problems with the sound
card which has stop working. I build the computer many many
years ago for Tina (I think 2010 or 2011). The motherboard
is a P6T
from Asus. The reason for the defect sound was very simple -
age! Asus have stopped for support for Windows 2010 for this
I would never have
thought of, that this age problem could be the end of the
computer. I recommended, that they should buy a USB
soundcard instead. After the visit I walk home from around
Friheden station. That was a interesting walk with high
wind and rain most of the way. I only took one picture!
Both thursday and friday
was work all day. Saturday I walked to the offices building to
raid the candy closet. The weather was very sunny but below
1 / 15
From the walk wednesday - taken at Avedøre Holme
Offshore Wind Farm Lots of rain, snow and wind - no the perfect weather
2 / 15
From the walk saturday - lots of sun
3 / 15
But temperatures below zero
4 / 15
Nice invention - much easier to hit, when you are on the move
5 / 15
The view over the inner harbor
6 / 15
On the left is one of the many harbor baths in Copenhagen
7 / 15
8 / 15
On the way I passed Carlsberg district which is
undergoing city devolvement and is on the way to be ruined
Else everything is going
great. Everyone is just waiting for this great chinese
Corona collective collapse of the danish society. I saw this
poster saying something like "Hang in there - wait it out" -
Great! Everything is still closed - most likely until the
end of march.
2021-01-10 - Busy week
Usually the four first
weeks are insane busy at work. This year is no exception. It
even feels more busy than usual as we still have to work
from home and many of my good coworkers from last year have
found new jobs. In total I had 9 1/2 hours overtime giving
me a working week of
46,5 hours. It okay - but hard.
I have changed my daily
routines due to the chinese Corona and that this lockdown
might go on for aleast 1 more month. Now we wake up at 6:30,
I take a 30 min. bike ride. Bath and breakfast and are ready
to log on work around 7:45.
For every 55 minutes of
work I do 5 minutes of workout. This is to protect my
shoulders as all my work is done in front of my work
computer. Else I would just sit still for like 3 or 4 hours
witch is very unhealthy. After logging off, I usual take 20
minutes very light bike ride again.
The pictures below are
from a mega 37,5 km long walk last sunday and a shorter walk
1 / 45
Yet another monster walk - this time 37,5 km. long.
As I came to Long Bridge
a tall sailboat approached. And the bridge opened.
Next week will just be
more of the same. Long working hours and nothing else to do.
That is except wednesday, where I have planed a long walk
Tina and I had hoped to
begin looking into buying stuff for our new summerhouse. But
because of lockdown that is totally not possible. The only
thing we can do is online buying. But still, it is nice to
try out a new bed or sofa before buying. I guess that is not
going to happen now. All we can do is to wait and then wait
2021-01-02 - New year and
There are now 30 days
until we take over the new summerhouse. Tina has already
spend all of our money ten times on furniture and stuff. I
am more realistic and have only spend our money two times.
There is not much to do at this time other than just wait.
As we always do - we
keep to ourselves new years eve and watch movies. This year
we had a shrimp cocktail as starter. Then we had lamb chop
with potatoes and tzatziki. As dessert Tina made lemon
It was super - Tina really knows her shit.
Afterward we first watch
the movie Tenet and then
midnight sky on NetFix. I think both movies were wired
in each in their own way. Tenet was kind of confusion and
the story was just a little to fantastic for my taste. The
midnight sky was okay - but way to slow at times.
On monday it was time
for the annual cleaning behind our shower cubicle. Last year
I left this metal cookie jar behind the shower, because it
was leaking just a little bit. That turned our to be a huge
mistake from my side. It was completely rusted and the
bottom just gave away when I pressed just a little. It had
also left a huge mark on the floor - what a bummer.
After a lot of polishing
with ceramic cleaner I almost got the mark reduced to almost
nothing. The main purpose of the cleaning was to check the
stop valves and to exercise them a little so they don't get
On tuesday I took a 25
km long bike ride along my usual walking path. That was a
lot faster than walk but kind of busted my knee because my
saddle is adjusted wrong. At times I just fell so old'ish.
I have revived
my previous computer after a 2 year exile on the
attic. This machine is incredible. If think I build
it in 2010 or around that time. The motherboard is a
P6X58D Premium from Asus. It has a Core I7 in
LGA 1366 socket, 24 gb ram and a SSD drive. And it
still fells like it is way faster them my current
work laptop from work. The only reason I had to discard it was because
stopped supporting than socket. That is not a
problem as I only have installed Windows on it. The
plan is to bring the computer down to our coming
summerhouse. I the beginning we won't bring any
expensive stuff down there.
Tomorrow sunday I plan
on doing yet another super long walk. I am not sure if my
legs will love that - but that's what they will get. The
weather forecast for sunday is around 3 degrees, little wind
and some sum now and then.
On monday it's back to
work - or back to work from home again. I really need to don
more workout and move around. I have aleast gained 4 kilos
this december. I cannot afford to buy new cloths one site
larger at this point and I really don't want to become fat.
My plan is to use Tina's
exercise bike way more until I can begin coming back to work
and enjoy my bike ride.
New top picture
I have changed the top
picture to yet another picture from my trip to Norway last
summer. I think the location is around
This might sound stupid
- but that is exactly what I am experiencing. Many years ago
(>10) I had the flu and a sinusitis - I remembered it as a
tough one. Since then I have had problems with runny nose.
Especially in the morning. Sometime it can ruin a hole day.
But after I had Corona I have not had any problems with
runny nose. I am not concluding that Corona fixed my nose
but - just saying it is different. It could of cause also be
because there is less pollution in the air - but still, the
Corona was a turning point.
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